– Jyotsha Kumar
Laying on bed, trying to sleep when the night’s silence was broken by thunder followed by the pounding of rain. It was really loud. This was the first real change in weather in a long time. For almost a month all that I was experiencing was the dull winter. The sun always hidden behind the clouds, the clouds not visible through the fog in the first place. No change at all. Really boring to be honest. The torrential downpour not exactly pleasant was a welcome change.
Is this about desiring different things even if they are bad just to escape the ordinary uninspiring life?
I don’t like rain. I hate it. It makes everything wet and dirty. And that is exactly how it was the next day. Muddy puddles everywhere. The weather was still gloomy, clouds still jealously hiding the sun behind its veil. But as the hour hand reached 12, it was as though mother nature itself was revived. The clouds had finally let go. Rays of light were bouncing off everything and it looked beautiful! God finally discarded his anger for colors and saturation.
Is this about the metaphorical dawn that will always come after a night? About how bad things don’t last forever?
The amazing feeling of the sun blessing earth with its warmth was accentuated by the gentle breeze. The static dull scenery now was vibrant and expressive.
Is this about how we should take time to appreciate nature, the beauty in every small and big thing around us?
I went up to the roof. The wind was cool, the sun was warm. Perfectly pleasant. I even took a video of the trees dancing, the rustling of leaves rather calming. My mind was clearing. Emptiness was filling my mind. Few minutes later the regular thoughts, worries, doubt, concern, fear, comes trickling back one problem at a time.
Is this about how we can never truly escape the inevitability of life’s bothers?
It is about one and all of the above. The working of the mind being an unresolved mystery. The ability to change the very state of being by simply having a different perspective. The ability to find different meanings in even the smallest nuance. Most importantly the way it can exaggerate the simplest things for better or worse. If a simple breeze can be amplified as such then what it can do with sorrow, regret and anguish is truly frightening…